So, I'm at a pretty cool place right now.

I can do almost anything that I've ever dreamed of doing in my life. I've kept all the right doors open, and I'm young enough (sub 20), that I can essentially do everything but become a sports star (Oddly enough, I still try).

I'm in my second year of an Engineering degree, majoring in Physics. I can go into Nuclear, Photonics or Micro-Devices. Pretty sweet right? But who knows. I've been scouting for jobs already, and graduation is at LEAST 3 more years away. I'm getting ahead of myself here.

I could join the military; reserves, air force and navy are all interesting options to me. I'd absolutely love to be a pilot, and what better way to become an astronaut. As silly as it sounds it's still a longtime dream of mine to someday fly a jet, or work somewhere in the space program. This is something I can potentially achieve if I stay an engineer.

I could take any academic course in university imaginable. I don't love every subject, but I could make myself excel in almost any field with mediocre effort (not to toot my own horn...) should I take a different path.

I love the piano. I don't have one right now. I've been playing for over 14 years now. Some years are off years, such as this one, but others have been very intensive. I've completed my grade eight certification, which allows me the technical prerequisites to enter a music school. Should I want too, all I'd have to do is practice an advanced repertoire for 5 or 6 months and audition. I almost did 2 years ago when deciding what to do.

Again, I like where I am right now, but the last thing I want to do is regret not taking more chances and following my dreams later on in life.

The only part that's holding me back is myself.
If only knowing what I want was as easy as doing it. I don't feel a push or pull in any direction. They said I would. I feel like I'm drifting.

WHICH REMINDS ME!

http://youtube.com/watch?v=I39tlC7Sy9Q

This is a good song, and it eerily feels like me right now.